I'M GONNA SMACK THAT ALL ON THE FLOOR

I just want comforting. I feel so bad asking you for it. I'm sorry.

I think I'm jealous that you have friends and a good life outside of our relationship...and I don't. I am such a fucking bitch.

I'm sorry I don't want to fucking empty YOUR dishwasher or feed YOUR children. I'm sorry I have to live here. Please, please move. Far away. I don't want you near me because maybe if you're further away, I'll be able to grow some balls and tell you that I'm marrying him, that I don't care what you say, that I'm leaving your precious saving grace and I don't care what you say, that I'm so so angry you won't help me pay for college, despite your enormous wealth, and I don't care what you think about it, that I know I probably have no reason to be so angry but I don't care, that I FUCKED HIM, and I FUCK HIM ALL THE TIME, and I'VE FUCKED HIM IN YOUR HOUSE! That we have better sex than you probably do cause you're so fucking conservative and there's nothing wrong with being conservative but I bet you never even TRIED half the shit you talk down about. That there's nothing wrong with being gay, that I actually believe that and this is the first time I've ever consciously thought that, that anal can feel GOOD if you do it right, that it's not just for gay men, that heterosexual couples can do it and it CAN feel good for a woman! I FUCKING KNOW THIS! I wanna fucking rub it in your face that as much as you look down on girls who get pregnant, your own daughter is HAVING SEX and will CONTINUE to have sex because she knows it's right for her. That the ONLY reason you're not grandparents is cause we use the birth control that you NEVER taught us how to use. I hate you because I can never come to you with a problem related to sex. I want my kids to feel like they could tell me shit, even if they don't want to. I hate that you could never see how responsible we are, how fucking IN LOVE we are, because those moments mean nothing to you because we're 'sinning.' I hate that you have such backward views that I'm not even sure if you legit believe the world was created in six days, no metaphors or anything. I hate that he has such a better view of the world and Jesus than you and he probably wouldn't even be considered CHRISTIAN in your little world. I JUST FUCKING HATE YOU! LEAVE! GO! I DON'T WANT TO BE NEAR YOU! I CAN'T WAIT TO GET AWAY!

My first favorite band was the Killers - and it still is. There was something about their fresh glam-rock style that appealed to me, and I think that I was at the perfect time to have a favorite band, since I discovered them the summer before I went to High School. Although there are now bands that I think are musically better than the Killers (see: MUSE), the Killers are still and may always be my favorites.